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We just dropped my mom off at the airport about 40 minutes ago, her flight leaves at 8:30pm. Now Simon and I feel weird.... I think we are both missing her? I miss her even though she drove me insane almost the whole time she was here, and we had our blowouts. I don't even know how to describe this feeling, I kinda hate it. It's a weird sadness felt like deep within. I know my mom is a good person in her heart of hearts, I just wish she'd love herself enough to take her mental health into her hands properly and work on herself seriously. I also wish she'd trust me to be an adult and not coddle me. It's honestly a fine line between love and toxicity. I dunno. I feel like I'll have a lot to talk to my therapist about at our next session.
Add into that the fact that Simon and I are now alone. We met some people my mom knows here, but otherwise we have no family members within any sort of nearby distance anymore. As someone who grew up less than 2 hours from her hometown and not too far from many relatives, it's an odd feeling. I'm sure once we start getting more into our routines it will get better, but yeah. I just overall feel strange. I'll be back in Toronto at the end of November for about four days, so I will see her then.
Tomorrow I am back to work.....blah. I seriously wish I had one extra week on my old schedule and had Tuesdays off. Getting established right after my mom left feels like just dropping from one extreme to the next. My first class is this upcoming Wednesday as well. I'm not ready for school tbh. I haven't been since April and it still feels like not enough time. I hope everything works out ok.
The following Wednesday is my birthday. After class I might get Simon to drive us into Charlottetown, I kinda want to get my hair cut and dyed. Then he might treat me to a lobster roll lunch cuz I've been wanting to try one badly. Then maybe some Cows ice cream which is famous ice cream in PEI.
Next Saturday I may go hiking with this PEI woman's group I joined. Then the following Saturday our stuff will be moved and we'll have to basically spend the day unpacking and moving stuff around to try and make this place our own.
Anyway, yeah...I feel meloncholy. I'm sure it will pass once life becomes back to normal. It's been a crazy two weeks.
Writing Prompts
3. Is there a place in the world you never want to visit?
Honestly... I have no desire to visit India. I know I'd be extremely overwhelmed by everything there. Also North Korea.
4. When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?
Umm I'll get back to you on that.
5. How are you more likely to make an important decision, by reasoning through it, or by going with your gut?
A bit of both, I think you should rationalize, but don't let that stop you from going after a dream. You can rationalize taking risks on anything in life and then you miss out on some cool things.
Add into that the fact that Simon and I are now alone. We met some people my mom knows here, but otherwise we have no family members within any sort of nearby distance anymore. As someone who grew up less than 2 hours from her hometown and not too far from many relatives, it's an odd feeling. I'm sure once we start getting more into our routines it will get better, but yeah. I just overall feel strange. I'll be back in Toronto at the end of November for about four days, so I will see her then.
Tomorrow I am back to work.....blah. I seriously wish I had one extra week on my old schedule and had Tuesdays off. Getting established right after my mom left feels like just dropping from one extreme to the next. My first class is this upcoming Wednesday as well. I'm not ready for school tbh. I haven't been since April and it still feels like not enough time. I hope everything works out ok.
The following Wednesday is my birthday. After class I might get Simon to drive us into Charlottetown, I kinda want to get my hair cut and dyed. Then he might treat me to a lobster roll lunch cuz I've been wanting to try one badly. Then maybe some Cows ice cream which is famous ice cream in PEI.
Next Saturday I may go hiking with this PEI woman's group I joined. Then the following Saturday our stuff will be moved and we'll have to basically spend the day unpacking and moving stuff around to try and make this place our own.
Anyway, yeah...I feel meloncholy. I'm sure it will pass once life becomes back to normal. It's been a crazy two weeks.
Writing Prompts
3. Is there a place in the world you never want to visit?
Honestly... I have no desire to visit India. I know I'd be extremely overwhelmed by everything there. Also North Korea.
4. When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?
Umm I'll get back to you on that.
5. How are you more likely to make an important decision, by reasoning through it, or by going with your gut?
A bit of both, I think you should rationalize, but don't let that stop you from going after a dream. You can rationalize taking risks on anything in life and then you miss out on some cool things.
